Just six months ago wrote this excerpt in my journal:
“His love. His heart is so transparent. He pours out his
love onto my life in numerous ways but yet sin is like Glaucoma; fogging my
sight of what's right and only allowing me to see what's wrong. The Lord says
he will be back for his children but will I be one of the chosen ones to go
back to his home? I've seen tasted smelled and been in the presence of God. So
why do I keep allowing sin to come in when I've had the sweetest love
known to man. But yet God still loves me. I can hear him saying do you know the
way you move me? You are my child Amber. I made you distinctively unique;
different from everyone else because there's something in you.... Something in
you that you haven't figured out yet. That something is an attribute the body
of Christ needs.
I'm just so thankful I serve a God who can forgive me for my sins I continually to commit and he's not disappointed in me. He breaks off all the shame and condemnation the Devil put on me that came with the sin I allowed myself to get into.
His presence is so thick and tangible right now and I don't even know how to soak it all in. It's something I don't know how to explain. I just feel like a complete disappointment to him. Just a year ago I was in church four days a week, evangelizing and winning souls. What happened? This person isn't me. I miss the presence of God.
I'm praying for repentance and strength. Father forgive me. Give me strength to fight of these demons. I bind them in the name of Jesus and put on the armor you provided me with. I plead the blood of Jesus over me and Satan has NO power over me anymore. My life belongs to Jesus. I am his.
Father thank you for your never ending mercy and love. Thank you for always forgiving. Thank you for sending your one and only begotten son. Thank you father.
I love you.
Amen!”
I'm just so thankful I serve a God who can forgive me for my sins I continually to commit and he's not disappointed in me. He breaks off all the shame and condemnation the Devil put on me that came with the sin I allowed myself to get into.
His presence is so thick and tangible right now and I don't even know how to soak it all in. It's something I don't know how to explain. I just feel like a complete disappointment to him. Just a year ago I was in church four days a week, evangelizing and winning souls. What happened? This person isn't me. I miss the presence of God.
I'm praying for repentance and strength. Father forgive me. Give me strength to fight of these demons. I bind them in the name of Jesus and put on the armor you provided me with. I plead the blood of Jesus over me and Satan has NO power over me anymore. My life belongs to Jesus. I am his.
Father thank you for your never ending mercy and love. Thank you for always forgiving. Thank you for sending your one and only begotten son. Thank you father.
I love you.
Amen!”
Looking back on this
I just become filled with joy. At that time in my life I was hopeless and my
faith was very little but God never took His hands off of me. I just wanted to
post this and just let everyone know God never stops working on us and He has completely
answered this prayer for me over these 6 months. He is more than my words can
ever say and I just can’t stop praising Him. He’s so wonderful!
No comments:
Post a Comment